11.15.2011

esteem enhancer and maturity meter

It happened just like the movies, just like she always thought it would, but not like she wanted it to.

He walked her to her car. Opened the doors. Took the bags from her arm and placed them in the back seat. His slight touch wasn't in the least bit offensive or invasive. He was gentle, making small comments about the weather and the evening.

Small talk followed them all the way until she was seated in the driver's seat, car on, and soft music playing, and he was leaning against the outside of her door talking through the open window.

Without much hesitation or strain the words came from his mouth confident and sure he already knew her answer.

Those six little words. Every girl at some point wants to hear a variation of them in her lifetime. They are esteem enhancers. He found her desirable enough to ask to be seen alone with her in public. That he wants to be labeled "together." That she is worth the time of a relationship.

The look of confusion crossed her face. The only time she'd ever been faced with an answer she was about to give was with guys that had little respect for her or her family or convictions. Then the answer was simple, blatant, and obvious.

A wave of thoughts crashed over her thinking. Thought after thought tumbled in her mind like seashells under a currant. But, unlike the ocean the turmoil ceased and the answer wasn't as cloudy as she thought.

This is where those six esteem enhancer words became a maturity meter. The attention was wonderful. The thought of being sought after was flattering. The idea of being in a "relationship" was exciting. But they were not what she wanted.

She wanted something forever. Not a couple dates, facebook status changer, free time filler, half a year fun time.

She wanted to be lead spiritually, emotionally from now until death did them part.

She wanted her next "relationship" to be her last. She had no intention of throwing her heart at anyone to have anything done to it and returned at some point tattered and scarred.

She never once thought that would be his intentions but the maturity meter in those words made her search for the details she was looking for and she didn't find them. Where she might have at one point jumped on the opportunity her desires to be the Father's desires won out in the end. She knew that He was preparing the best for her and patience is key.

You see my friends, her heart is whole and untouched. The only people who have access are her father and her Father. That's it. It will only be released to one other man in her lifetime. That's it. One day her father will hand it over with her Father's leading. Until that day comes it is to be left untouched, protected, whole, and pure.

She didn't leave that night regretting her decision. She left knowing confidently that he wasn't the one her heart would belong to. She was sure and peaceful about it.

In the end those six words served both purposes. They did enhance her esteem. They also tested her maturity. She is still anticipating what future her Father is preparing her for and for her. Right now, I'm pretty sure she is happily enjoying Him.

That my friends is a wonderful start to a happily forever after.

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